When I can't pray.

Sometimes it's hard to pray when you feel ill and tired. Sometimes I can't pray, then worry that it's not that I can't but that I won't.

Do I feel a God who lets me feel so ill doesn't deserve to be prayed to , or that when my energy is at such a low ebb that I can't be bothered? I don't know the answers to these questions...and my brain feels fuddled.

But I don't MAKE myself pray...though maybe I should. I 'offer it up' and I shoot up the odd prayer: Help me...Come Holy Spirit...Father I put myself in your hands...Dear Mother pray for me...I'm sorry... I still love Him and try to obey Him except I don't follow my usual prayer schedule.

I'm too tired to think, so I put myself in His hands, and relax.